No Turning Back!
Commitment. The very word conjures fear in many people, but have you ever committed to something you love doing? That’s what we did this past weekend – paid the deposit and turned in the paperwork to Mountain Vision Expeditions. I guess there’s no turning back now, which in all honesty is a little scary. All the “what if’s” start to come into play, and the battle to build mental strength begins.
Sitting at the computer screen this morning the “what if’s” seem so varied and numerous that I could never count them as fast as my mind could produce them. However, I know the importance of staying focused and controlling that fear. On summit morning next August, the number of “what if’s” won’t be nearly as numerous, but the intensity level will ramp up many
times over. Learning to handle the worries by changing my focus, my perspective is extremely important. It’s not merely a matter of pushing the fearful thoughts out of your mind – they have a way of returning and seem even more rational the second time around – it’s about transforming fears into excitement!
Taking a few specific examples of fear that appear to be rational regarding Kilimanjaro:
1) The cost. We are neither rich, nor are we poor, and like everyone else in the middle class, we could always use the money toward something else. However, we value our relationship and shared life experiences above material goods.
2) It’s a long ways away in what most consider to be a third world country. We view this as an entirely new culture with interesting people, who we look forward to meeting and learning from.
3) It’s too hard physically. We believe fitness level is an important part of living a full life, but understand that staying fit merely for the purpose of staying fit isn’t a good enough reason (for us). Having a goal larger than ourselves gives us ample motivation to work out on days we don’t feel like it, and to push those workouts even harder.
This is a microcosm for dealing with real life fears. It’s important to learn to change one’s perspective around and enjoy the life we have been given.